Almost a year to the day I wrote this post. I didn't put it on my blog, though. I just stumbled across it and thought that it was post-worthy, so here is where I was a year ago. BTW, God is still on the throne and I grew in my faith as a result of these trials. Just like the Bible says that I would! Go figure =-)
Something that Pastor said the other day struck me enough for me to write it down.
He said "If you ever get to the place where you want to quit, that's where you get alone with God and say 'God, I need to see you' "
I keep getting to the place where I want to quit. Oh, not my marriage, or family. That is set in stone and really isn't a weak spot that the Devil can poke and prod around in.
It is my service for God that often gets attacked. It's not that I don't want to serve God. I gladly and willingly do. I want to be busy for him and doing things that have eternal value. I want to be telling others about Christ. I want to be solid in my faith. I want to have people asking me to pray for them because they know that my prayers get answered. I desire to be committed to the cause of Christ and completely sold out in my walk for Him.
And yet, I am super sensitive to discouragement. So that is where Satan Loves, Loves, Loves to attack me. Very little bad stuff happens to me outside of church that I don't cover with faith. It is the stuff that happens inside the church body that drives me to the verge of quitting. I hate that I am weak enough in this area that Satan can have a stronghold in my life.
As I was telling Riky last night, it is so easy to say that you're not going to let something get to you anymore, but to actually not let it get to you is a whole different story. That takes time for me and a whole lot of determination and commitment. Most of the time I fail, much to Riky's disappointment. I know that ~time heals all wounds~ this too shall pass~all things work together for good~and that God is in control.
I need to seek God's face and find comfort in His word, but in the meantime, I would love to punch Satan right in the kisser.
2 comments:
Amen Sister!!! My boys are always telling me how if that if Satan comes at them today, they are just going to give him a Walker Texas Ranger Round Kick or punch him or run away or some other great and daring thing. I remind them that God gives us a way to do that. Quoting Scripture, as He did when Satan came knocking at His door, is a sure fire way to send him packing. My brother says that we as Christians are really good at kicking each other when we are down. We do more discouraging than the edifying we are called to do. My sister-in-law's church does a blog (for women mostly) and their "Choice Silver" segment was about that very thing. It talked about right where I am at in my church right now. I want you to read it and then maybe we can pray with each other. Their blog is called Beautiful For Thee. Love you. Debie
Yep, this time last year was prettttyyyy rough, wasn't it? :(
I'm so glad that's over. But I was thinking recently of how awesome the magnitude of the beauty that He gives for our ashes is! Wow. I continually stand amazed at the Presence of the God we serve.
I sincerely hope this gets better for you. You DO have one thing potentially in your favor this year though...I'm no longer there to make things harder on you.
Love you....SO much. Call me when you have a minute or two. =o)
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